(2/3) not naturally an extrovert, but that she felt lonely during quarantine. These past two weeks have been the best living hell of my life. I remind myself every day that training those last two years going into the 2018 Olympics felt like a live or die situation. I was pushing through pain where I knew that I needed to get surgery afterwards, but I also didn’t think that I could physically survive what I mentally went through in 2014 again. So, I trained every day like it was the last day of my life. And when I walked into the surgery at the Steadman clinic in 2018, I thought, I’m ready for this surgery and to skate without pain again. The thing was, I wasn’t getting better, but again, I kept pushing myself over and over and I’d ask if the feelings I was having were normal. For the most part, I kept being told that I was rushing back to recovery, which was probably true, but there was always this nagging feeling in me that told me it wasn’t right. I’d tap for flips and lutzes and jolts of pain, way worse than what I was dealing with before would shoot down my leg. Fast forward to two weeks ago when I went through my second hip surgery, a periacetabular osteotomy or a PAO, similar to the one a colleague of mine, Caroline Zhang, went through sometime in 2015. I was told I was dysplastic, which explains my flexibility. I think a lot of figure skaters have a lot of hip issues, which is something that isn’t often talked about in our community. The pain of this surgery makes my labral surgery feel like a breeze in the park. Currently, my toilet has handles because I can’t even take a sh*t without help. I want to say that the Olympics were well worth the commitment, but some days, especially during recent nights, the pain makes me question everything, but I think back on the adrenaline pumping through me after I skated in the team event and how powerful I felt after accomplishing something I spent days crying over. When I think back on it, I can’t even comprehend that I was able to accomplish going to the Olympics, not just once but twice.
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